No one knows you're waking up at 3am with a mental loop that won't let you go back to sleep.
You read every room, feel every shift, and still deliver — while carrying more than anyone around you can see. You've done the therapy. You have the insight. And still, the reaction lands before the thought does, and you're spiraling at 3am anyway.
It's not an effort problem, and it's not a sleep problem. Your body, your nervous system, your mind, and your emotions are out of alignment — a wobbling Jenga tower, and you're the one holding it together.